let me be me

FYI. The only prayer I raised this morning is just like what I want it to be changed. God is cool!

when the day ends , it comes to another day

In this not-a-very special day, i never asked to have any prayers, hugs, love or anything. i just wanted to enjoy the day. to make myself realize that, I'm not only getting older, but also I should do something in my life. 

It was started by a late-night BBMing with somefriend. Then tens of prayers poured to me. I was really glad to read all of them. And replaying all of them with a better prayer. I dont want to have a good prayer by myself. Then, it came to -- the other usual afternoon, which felt a little bit different. 

We were texting just like the other two days ago. Talking random things. Arguing a bit. When it comes to something made me wake-up. Why don't I do another-little-effort to make me more deserve to get her? I always got accustomed to think about the worst possibility of any kind of event. In this case, I do that as well.

I'm about to make a change. Of my own self. Instead of make-a-poor-feeling of myself, I decide to do this change for me. Then for HIM. Then for her. Why it's not her sitting at the first place? I don't want to got hurt (anymore), I want to make myself sure that this change is a personal-change, then surely, it's HIM we should turn our deeds to. Now. I'm praying to myself. May God help me to face any-kind of distraction and keeping me to this faith.

because , when you do something for yourself . you'll hold it tight to ensure the best that the only thing you would acquire . God ? Oh, HE is unquestionable!